lessons learned

over the past few months,

i have learned a lot about a lot.

i started becoming a person i dont want to be.

i let someone else influence my

actions, vocabulary, friendships.

i honestly dont know why.

regardless of why though,

i am ashamed of who i was becoming.

i have been bearing a lot of weight on my shoulders.

other peoples drama, stress, problems.

and it took me far to long to realize

that i have a life of my own.

and as much as i wanted to just be

a "good friend,"

i was hurting not only myself,

but others who were around me.

today i finally made the realization

that i cant do this anymore.

i cant let one person who really,

is just a glorified bully

bring me down anymore.

its not worth it.

its hurting me and my family and my life.

my stomach has literally been in knots

all day long.

and i am to the point where i would just love

to be able to move far, far FAR away from here.

women are cruel.

2 faced.

selfish.

uncaring.

brutal.

and i am tired of being associated

with such crazy people.

i just want to have good friends

who appreciate and respect me.

who dont have to put me down

to make themselves feel better.

i am by no means a perfect person.

or friend.

or wife.

or anything.

but unlike some people,

i have compassion,

and a kind heart,

and i am forgiving of others.

always.

i definitely have learned

a very valuable lesson through all of this.

and i will take it with me 

for the rest of my life,

and especially the rest of my time as

a military wife.

its been a while..

its been a while since i last blogged.

ive been keeping myself super busy

with taking & editing photos.

i would say that its been going pretty good!

i was a little unsure of myself for a while

because a very rude & judgmental person

decided it would be a good idea

to be completely hateful about

my wanting to do photography.

but that person is out of my life now,

and that i am thankful for.

i dont want to surround myself

with selfish, inconsiderate people like that.

but contrary to what 

she thought would happen,

its been going really well 

and i havent had any complaints yet.

so, i'd like to show you some of my photos

that i have taken within

the last couple of weeks :)

isnt this little girl so adorable?

ohmygoodness.

she was a little ham for this photo shoot.

i never thought i would love 

taking pictures this much.

Its really a win, win for me.

i love doing something

that makes people happy

and i love their reactions

when they love their photos.

aaaand, i get a little extra money,

so thats always good :)

Maternity Photo Session :)

so yesterday i had my very first 

maternity photo shoot.

i was SO nervous.

i've never given direction to anyone

or told them how to pose 

for a picture.

it was definitely something that

was way out of my comfort zone.

but even through that inner struggle,

i think they turned out very well.

i literally spent all day editing them.

so here's a couple of them :)

if you wanna see more,

you can go here :)

and "like" my page!

photography :)

so as of yesterday,

i decided to make my own little business :)

not that i'm any professional,

but i'm going to start taking/editing photos

for families that live on post.

i'm pretty excited about it.

though i did get my first negative comment

on my idea to take photos today.

but lucky for me,

i cut that person out of my life a while ago.

so it really wasnt a surprise.

but other than that,

everyone has been super supportive

and i really cant thank people enough for that.

it means so much

when people have your back

on something that you have interest in.

so i started up a facebook page

for my photography business.

you can find it here :)

and then you can go and "like" it...

if ya want :)

thursday photo session with aubrey

so my awesome friend nicole

made aubrey a tutu and matching bow :)

so we decided to do a little photoshoot

and here's a few of the pics that i took..

and edited :)

isnt she just adorable :)

hi :)

tutu tushy

black and white :)

nicole and aubrey :)

and my absolute favorite!

shes probly the prettiest little girl ever.

yeah, ever.